As Labor day weekend draws closer and preparations to attend Shadow Lanes Vegas party become more and more real, I am still wondering If I will be able to get over that first step and make the trip to Sin City. I am looking forward to the event with mixed feelings, after all we are talking about an event that features my second favorite thing.
In the past I would not be able to even admit my preference, I was sure these thoughts and feeling should be internalized, and as private as possible. Well since I have been posting my preferences and making comments on other blogs I was thinking that maybe its time to get over it. There is a distinct possibility that I may feel uncomfortable or so uptight that I won’t be able to participate but I am sure that staying away will not make it any better.
I can imagine all kinds of scenarios and of course they are all worst case. But seriously whats actually the worst that could happen aside from vanishing in a moist cloud of schadenfreude or immediate dis corporation, On the other hand there is an opportunity to socialize with like minded people and work on those live interpersonal interactive skills that rapidly atrophy from disuse. I just recently observed to a friend that if you spend a lot of time on your own, it is very easy to wind up talking to yourself, that seems ok to me. Now on the other hand if you interrupt yourself , now thats just nutz.